i wish it would rain

feeling conflicted.  there are moments when I wish it would rain..
but also having such an awesome time..

shake

oh how much can change in one year.

I'm not sure I'm the happiest right now than I have been at different points or moments in my life but I am still very happy to be where I am right now.

I don't see how things could have been different and opportunities have presented themselves when I could not have imagined them.  the experiences, the places, the people have such a strong influence on me and I am thankful!

paradise

vinyl

“What came first – the music or the misery? Did I listen to the music because I was miserable? Or was I miserable because I listened to the music? Do all those records turn you into a melancholy person?”

11 more days

still wondering how I am going to pack everything but we had a good packing session late last night. thank goodness I have such wonderful friends. can't wait to finish getting all my things ready and just be excited for this! 

this one's for you

countdown mode

25 days left!!

how am I going to pack everything?

our last song

one of my favourite performances at the Squamish Music fest.

one way

Nice job. You chose well.  

I hope so! 

I booked the flight two weeks ago and I think it's finally starting to sink in! 

Once in awhile I always feel like I want to to travel, explore new places, new things, new food, etc. but part of me really enjoy the comfort of routines and being around familiarity.

but I think now is a good time to embrace the part of me that wants to travel and explore! I'm getting pretty excited and nervous at the same time.  

cinema

love this article too

article

coffee

i love random infographics.   and coffee. and friends who send me these things :) 

They didn't have regular coffee on here but I would say I drink Americano 2nd most - which is still a pretty accurate description (besides the watery coffee part).

stressed

it feels like every aspect of my life is stressing me out at the moment.

even normal people

feeling a bit motivated

clarity

some days

it's been a rough few days.. feeling confused.

but the good moments are keeping me sane and happy at times.

spent the whole day relaxing and really just not thinking too much and enjoying our time..

and it's so nice to have my sister in town for a little while.

watched Before Midnight over the weekend and I'm still thinking about the movie.  I loved the first two movies and loved Julie Delphy in them.  Even though the third one still seems like a happy ending to me.. I'm not sure I liked her character as much in this movie and is that really just the natural path that relationships will take.. I probably shouldn't generalize.. don't really want to lose faith in happy endings.

really?

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you.  You just got to find the ones worth suffering for."

- Bob Marley

grandpa

addicted to this show right now. 



Grandpa, everything is changing fastWe call it progress but I just don't knowAnd grandpa, let's wander back into the pastAnd paint me the picture of long ago
Did lovers really fall in love to stayAnd stand beside each other, come what mayPromise really something people keptNot just something they would say

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond any experience,your eyes have their silence: in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me, or which i cannot touch because they are too near 

your slightest look easily will unclose me though i have closed myself as fingers, you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens (touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose 

or if your wish be to close me, i and my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly, as when the heart of this flower imagines the snow carefully everywhere descending; 

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals the power of your intense fragility:whose texture compels me with the color of its countries, rendering death and forever with each breathing 

(i do not know what it is about you that closes and opens;only something in me understands the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses) nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands 

- E. E. Cummings

overthink

light

light

9 more days

until Montreal smoked meat and Quebec City!

Halcyon Days

Not from successful love alone,
Nor wealth, nor honor'd middle age, nor victories of politics or war;
But as life wanes, and all the turbulent passions calm,
As gorgeous, vapory, silent hues cover the evening sky,
As softness, fulness, rest, suffuse the frame, like freshier, balmier air,
As the days take on a mellower light, and the apple at last hangs
really finish'd and indolent-ripe on the tree,
Then for the teeming quietest, happiest days of all!
The brooding and blissful halcyon days!

- Walt Whitman

the last lines

daily perspective

came across this site today:

http://www.globalrichlist.com

weekends are fantastic

having some oysters before oyster season is over! 

then an amazing concert of my favourite band :) 

and then some dancing too..

what a great saturday night. 

don't really want this to be over.

end of winter

it was so nice to get up to Cypress before the end of the season. plus it was such a gorgeous day and it was actually so warm up there that i got a bit sun burned and a few new freckles..  

definitely want to go a few more times next season.

not sure what I expected

excited to see how this turns out.

love this city

weekend

biking around the seawall must be one of my favourite things to do.

especially when the weather is beautiful.

spring is here

it's such a nice sunny day today :)
it's starting to feel more like spring (my allergies also tells me spring is coming)

looking forward to the weekend!

photobooth

would love to visit this place.

stressed

lunch at Rainier Provisions before our rainy day (how fitting) study session

this kale ceasar salad was so good.. and the pulled pork & ham sandwich was just as good.

and they serve stumptown coffee so I have a feeling I will back here very soon.

everything's just been kind of stressful lately.. 

searching for a silver lining 

or maybe a relaxing day..

tiny

I missed you!

relax

definitely need a  hammock in my future home. 
it's so comfortable once you get into a good spot!

I've been trying to relax more lately but my body just does not like me.  feels like I just recovered from that awful cold during the holidays and now I'm sick again!  this extra long weekend could not have come at a better time :)

foggy

seawall in the winter. it was supposed to be sunny that day but it was actually pretty neat to walk it with the fog and see all the city lights when it got darker.

o monday

why are you always so difficult.  it's not just that it's right after the weekend.. it's just everything about you.  well last week was a good one.. here's to another great week after the monday is over.

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watched Silver Linings Playbook last week..  such a great movie.  love Jennifer Lawrence.  there are so many movies out I want to watch.  there's never enough time.  but time is just odd sometimes.

long weekend

I could get used to this flex day schedule.  feels like there's finally some downtime that was actually relaxing and enjoyable.

also extremely excited about this

the third movie is premiering at the Sundance!  That means we still have to wait a few months before it gets here! 

love this article on the movies.  always thought the 2nd movie ended beautifully but am so curious what this 3rd movie will be like.

in April

Their concert's not for a few months but so excited to see them!  hope they play a bunch of songs from their older albums too.  I think I've loved every song they've made.

morning song

all that is gold

“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.”

J.R.R. Tolkien

watched the Hobbit and then the extended version for the Lord of the Rings movies over the holiday break.  how did I only watch the first movie when it came out?  i've been missing out for the last 10 years!  reading the books next!

Montreal

It's still like 5 months away but now that I've booked my flight I'm very excited for our trip to Montreal (& hopefully Quebec City) this year!